Who remembers what my voice sounds like... cause I don't

For some reason I always feel like blogging in the middle of the night.  I don't know what it is but this is when I feel like writing.  

This week has been kind of difficult.  I didn't realize how much I usually do and how much I love to get out of the house.  A few years ago I could just lie around all day everyday and not care about anything.  This week I have been sick and I lost my voice and I am going stir crazy.  I missed classes all week and I haven't gone to the gym, or done much.

Monday night I went to a ward activity, Tuesday I didn't leave the house.  I laid on the couch all day, watched sad movies and just cried.  Wednesday I cleaned my room and then left the house for 1/2 an hour for a Relief Society Presidency meeting, and today was my most active day.  I drove my roommate to school, went to the store and went to Pizza Pie Cafe with friends for a little while because I am so sick of doing nothing.  That is all that has happened in the whole week.  

I feel so lazy just staying home and not getting anything done.  I love being productive and going out.  

I suppose this is really a good thing, needing to get out.  It is just so hard because I love to talk.  Most people know this already but I talk all the time.  Right now all i can do is whisper and if I whisper too much I start coughing. 

Hopefully if I can just rest this weekend I will be better by monday and I can get back to life.  I need to get to the gym because right now I have started feeling terrible about myself and the progress that I have made.  I know I need to keep things in perspective but I keep looking at what I haven't done instead of what I have accomplished.

(Rachel cheered me up with some Anne quotes and this picture found on pinterest)

I am happy that I am an active person and that I care about living a full life.  I just need to get back to it.

Close your left eye

This weekend I have been denying the truth but today I am finally willing to admit that I have nodes.  Just kidding I am just losing my voice and getting sick.  I haven't really recovered from being sick over the holidays and on Friday night I went sledding and got soaked.  Ever since I have been getting worse and worse but I thought if I just kept telling myself I wasn't sick, then I wouldn't be.  Makes sense right?  Anyways this evening some of my dear friends came over and brought me medicine and encouraged me to get better.  One of them wrote me a prescription of how to get better.  He is from Samoa and likes to make things up and the problem is I never know if he is lying or telling the truth. (truth truth on the roof, or liar liar pants on fire)

 When we went sledding I got hurt and he started to pretend to know how to make me better.  He made me close my left eye (his left not mine) and then put my hand on my left ear (my left not his) and then tell him when I felt pain.  It didn't work when we tried it the other night and I don't know if it will now, but hopefully the NyQuil and cough candies will.

I also got the chance to talk with this lovely lady for a while tonight and she always cheers me up.  I miss her so much and I can't believe she is almost going on her mission!  She is the coolest lady ever and you should all be jealous that I get to be her friend.  

Anyways Oil Painting is coming quickly so I must get some shut eye.  Love Hannah <3

by Small Means

I have read the first chapters in the Book of Mormon so many times and yesterday while I was in 1 Nephi I came across this scripture.  There are other scriptures that say things like this as but this one really stuck out to me.  As long as we are working towards our goals and progressing we can do great things and become amazing people.

I told my roommate and dear friend Rachel Fischer about this scripture and asked her to design something for me.  I love what she came up with and I think she is brilliant!  

Remember that you are incredible and you can do great things in your life.

Happy Friday <3

Delicious Granola Recipe

This is one of my favorite things to eat.  I usually don't really like yogurt but this granola makes it delicious.  I love to put a ton of it into greek yogurt for breakfast. or lunch. or dinner. or a snack.  It is just so good.  I don't know where the recipe is originally from but my dear friend Stephanie Lee taught me how to make this when we were neighbors.  

I mad made it last night when I got home from my workout and for some reason I couldn't take a nice picture.  I either made a funny face or closed my eyes for every single one but I still like the pictures.  (I just have character)

Granola:

1/3 C vegetable oil

2 tsp vanilla

3/4 C honey

8 C oats

1 1/2 C packed brown sugar

1/2 lb angel flake coconut

2 C almonds (I usually substitute chopped pecans)

1 C raisins

(or whatever else you want in your granola! I add whatever nuts I have and do a mix of raisins and cranberries)

Directions: Heat oil, vanilla, and honey over low/med heat until it gets bubbly, stirring constantly. Combine dry ingredients EXCEPT raisins in a large bowl. Add liquid ingredients over dry and mix well. Spray large cookie sheet or pan with Pam before pouring granola on. Bake at 325'F for 15-20 minutes stirring every 5 minutes. I sometimes put it on two sheets so it cooks faster.  After 10-15 minutes in the oven add the rasins or cranberries and continue to bake for the remaining time. It won't seem crunchy when its done just darker golden. It hardens as it cools outside of the oven.

Light a Fire

Today was the First workout for Biggest Winner this semester and all weekend I was dreading it.  I have just been feeling like I don't have the energy or motivation to get back to the gym and actually cooking food.  I may or may not have been eating fruit snacks and peanut butter cliff bars as my main meals for the past two weeks...  

I think I have just been nervous that I am going to let people down.  That I am going to let myself down  and so instead of that i would rather quit before it starts so that I never tried or failed.  The problem with this though, is I hate quitting.  Especially if someone tells me I can't I want to just say watch me and prove them so wrong their pants fall off, or I suppose in this situation my pants fall off because they are much too big.  

Want to know a secret?  I dropped about 8 pant sizes since I have started losing weight so I suppose I am doing something right.  Anyways I made it to my workout and once I was there it was great.  It feels so good to have endorphins back in me making me crazier and happier.  I am really excited for Biggest Winner and this semester to be amazing.

I think I just need to stay focused on my goals and the important things and if I can manage that everything else will fall into place.  

Opening ceremonies

Goodness Gracious!  It feels like it has been such a long week and I just never know what is going on.  Tonight I had opening ceremonies for the Biggest Winner program here at school and I have very mixed emotions about it.  I am so excited to get back to the gym and to progress and improve more but I am worried that I won't be good enough and I will let me team down.  I know I have already come so far but at times I feel like it just isn't good enough.  

My trainers said that we are going to be doing insanity this semester and I once tried the fitness test for it and I wanted to cry.  It was horrible.  I know that once things get going, as long as I have a positive attitude things will be great.

I just have so many things I want to do and places I want to go and I am always getting scared and holding myself back.  I need to work on letting go of those silly fears because honestly I am really cool and I rock.  Also I am kind of gorgeous.  I know I sound really conceited but you have to be confident in order to pull anything off.  One thing I am always saying to people is that if you are not confident about yourself or an outfit or whatever it won't be as good.  I really should just listen to my own advice.  Maybe I would be less crazy.  Oh well.

Shirt: JC Penney
Skirt: DownEast Outfitters (christmas present from Josie)
Watch: Aldo Accessories 

( song I am loving right now)

Good days

Isn't it crazy how a day can go from good to bad and then back to good?  This morning school was cancelled which I was happy about because one of my teachers kind of scares me and I was happy not to have to go to that class.  

Then I was trying to deal with my money problems, which it seems I always have, and it turns out nowhere in rexburg will exchange my canadian money unless I have an account with them.  Which is frustrating to me.

I was just feeling really down after class walking home carrying a bag of textbooks that I had just purchased when I heard someone ask if my hands were cold.  A really sweet boy put my books inside his bag and walked me all the way home.  I thought he would walk with me until we got to his apartment but he walked me all the way to Brookside and then all the way to my stairs.  

I am so grateful that the Lord is looking out for me and sending people into my life at the right moments.  Today I would have come home cranky and sad but instead I am remembering how good people are and how wonderful life is.